Hand Fasting

My posting was sporadic cause I was also trying to make all the preparations for the Hand fasting of two of my dearest friends. It was an honor that they choose me for this job. I had more fun than I should getting ordained as a non-denominational Reverend. ( that I am a reverend makes me giggle) The whole process was a growing one on so many levels. I grew closer to my favorite water witch sister and her hunky druid fiancee, who just happens to be the brother of my spirit. To say this was a labor of love doesn't come close. I didn't feel like I was doing that much really. Just a few things here and there. Til I started to add it all up. But even with it all in front of me it didn't seem like an excess. Just what I would do for those that I loved to have the best day of their lives.

I grew in my ability to write a ceremony. It was a collaboration for sure and I did "borrow" from those who came before but with little tweaks here and there I feel I made it reflect them and still sound like something I would say. It is the best ritual I have ever written hands down.

I learned to trust in myself. I fear failure, I am terrified of it. To let myself down is one thing but to let down others terrifies me. I wanted to live up to the trust placed in me. I was trying to not sound spazzy as the day approached but this was the biggest thing I had done and was doing in front of friends and family of the bride and groom who are not Pagans. I was not just representing my friends hopes and dreams of their much planned for wedding day but an example of what and who we are to those unfamiliar with our ways. NO PRESSURE. Plus added to that was a extra sprinkle of pressure as two dear friends who had originally planned on marrying them, who had to back out for completely understandable reasons, would be there as well. So I wanted them to feel like I had done a good job. Thanks to tools taught to me by the bride and groom and the love and support of my newest soul friend, My very own Windy Witch and my dear loving husband. I was able to make it thru the set up and day proceeding with very manageable levels of anxiousness. I hope a day will come when I can just sail thru these. However in one way I feel that if I didn't feel anxious, then I don't care. The wedding ceremony went as prefect as anything should. People were deeply moved and the bride and groom were thrilled with it. It was a proud moment and memory I will carry with me always.

At the reception, which was just too much fun, the groom and bride held a symbel, a toast of sorts. They thanked family and friends for their part in the wedding and in their lives. The groom gave a lovely hail to me, it was one of the most beautiful things I have ever felt/heard. I wish I had known it was coming so I could have recorded it. So on dark days I could replay it. I know that the Goddess brought me here, I know that this Tribe that i see growing around me is my reward for breaking away and making my way on my true path. I am profoundly honored by the wealth of friends I have, true friends, people who are the family of my heart.
That weekend by the sea was a joy and a blessing as so much of what we do together.
It was like a faerie dream full of flowers, butterflies, a princess and her prince.

Brightest Blessings