Hiding and seeking

I have been preparing today for the arrival of my sister in law and her three children for a visit. I find myself looking around my house for books and other items of my path. Tucking back bottles of wine so they are out of sight. Worried at the clutter in my home and how that make me less of a good woman, mother, wife. I am not the woman they have come to know. But that is my fault as much as theirs. I hide and suppress what I believe they could not accept, or understand. I have the altar in my room under cover due to painting in my room. A huge symbol of my search for a path that honors me in wholeness and harmony. I seeking my place and my purpose all the while hiding that from my relatives. That i guess is also part of the search is the strength and serenity that I can be myself, no hiding. I fear being vulerable to open up something so sacred to me to ridicule and mocking. What will be will be and I will make a path thru it one way or another. I am doing the work I am facing my demons and my fears and walking thru them. I am not alone. This too shall pass.

Little Pagan boy

Today while I was trying to find a book about forming a circle, yes a post on that soon. But my son comes in and wants to meditate with me. He sits down and puts his hands together in front his heart. I am sure that he has seen this in a movie, but am touched by it. He decides he is gonna meditate on how good our neighborhood is. So sweet! He sits in silence with his eyes closed for what is forever in 7 year old time. He opens his eyes and stand up and looks over my altar and picks up my new Athame. He hold is in one hand and bows his head in solemn seriousness. He tells me this is great sword and that is a sword of earth and peace. It is a small copper dagger and is set with stones. He places it back with great care. He spots my other athame and asks to hold it as well. I take it from it's sheath and hand it into his eager hands. He bows his head to this blade as well. He says this is a sword of sunlight and moonlight. This largish dagger has a what looks like horns and a crescent moon as the hilt and pommel. More than one grown adult as commented on it in circle having seen it. But that my untrained 7 years old son saw the Sun and Moon in this blade left me speechless. He is truly special little boy and I look forward to teaching him my ways and having others teach him the Ancient ways reborn. I love his surprises! Magic is real and it lives in the mind and heart of this witch and her little pagan boy!